16:39 p.m.
23/8/16
After took lot of time, finally me myself berjaya jugak rajinkan diri untuk buka laptop yang dah lama terbiar di atas katil, untuk update some new entry yang konon nya dah niat after my first sem result is out, then i'll be writing some topic about it. Well manusia merancang, Allah SWT yang tentukan, untuk pendekkan cerita, result aku tak membanggkan pun..apa pun, aku bersyukur sebab pass all the eight papers. if not, i might be extend another one semester. and that is the most scariest thing okay. sape nak extend kan, cukuplah 5 sem, include with internship.
i bet mesti semua org dok terfikir berapa agaknya pointer yang aku dapat, tapi unfortunately, im not going to share it..HAHAHAH rasanya tak payah kot, sebab memang jauh dari my expectation..my target semua lah, HOHOH tapi let bygone be bygone..btw if i got good result pun, i takkan share. so honestly, as Human Resource student, nak kata all the subject susah, it is not that tough, majority or almost subject is about theory..so memang kerja kita kena byk membaca, menghafal, revise, and ulang balik that method, tu je.
tapi itulah kan, kita bukan setakat belajar je, as human, tanggungjawab sebagai hamba, anak, kawan, dan untuk diri sendiri pun kena selesaikan. so the issue is, bukan kita tak fokus pada study, tapi kadang apa yang kita rasa kita mampu, itulah yang buat kita jatuh. or kadang, disebabkan kita taking something for granted, pun buat kita jatuh. yes, kita study, do assignment, buat homework, presentation, sampaikan weekend tu kita rasa nak rehat sepuas puasnya, sebab the whole week kita dah sangat busy. tapi i admit that i failed in managing my time, and am not prepare well for my exam.. too many things happened during my exam and the gap between one paper to another is only 2 days. so it sounds crazy for me, to catch up all the topic in a very short time and it is my false. no doubt. plus i dont want to blaming how many papers i have, it is so worthless and sound stupid.
so believe me, setiap course lain lain cabarannya, as HR student, every sem is a tough sem for you. tapi, selagi belum berakhir, usaha lah sebaik nya, i still remember one advice from my kakak usrah, she said that, Allah SWT bagi akal pada manusia sama je, takde yang pandai or tak pandai, yang membezakan seseorang tu whether dia usaha or not, and either dia rajin or malas. so takde istilah kau pandai and aku tak. so i believe that words. sekarang ni, apa pun result yang kita dapat, itulah permulaanya, kalau rendah, mungkin Allah SWT nak lihat kita berputus asa atau kita terus bersangka baik, or kalau result kita tinggi, mungkin Dia nak tengok, kita makin berusaha atau semakin lalai. Dia takkan berikan sesuatu tanpa sebab dan sekadar sia sia.
I believe the result yang kita dapat tu, itulah hasil usaha kita, kalau sebaliknya, anggaplah yang Dia sedang aturkan sesuatu yang lebih baik dan kita kena banyak bersabar and start to plan all the strategy to increase our pointer back! haa nampak tak, aku pujuk diri sendiri ;'D
"To worry about everyone else is where you fail. Worry about you."
